02B4E: Self-Imposed Writing Obstacles

Tuesday Adobo Lunch

 Metro Manila Community Quarantine - Day 822

Ended up working late because I was determined to finish a particular report. I could have wrapped it up in the morning, but I really wanted to get it out of the way. There are a lot of other things waiting in queue tomorrow, so I need all the wiggle room that I can afford.

Writing these blog posts has been a bit of a struggle this week for some reason. Or maybe the more accurate thing to say is that it still takes me more time than I'd like before I can set my thoughts and feelings to paper. I've talked about this a number of times and I often attribute it to my general mental state or something.

Upon further reflection, I also realize it is also related to the parts of my life that I choose not to write about (very personal stuff) or can't write about in detail (work). When I started blogging on LiveJournal, I formed a habit of pouring my feelings onto the page. As time passed and my work responsibilities (and my very scope) expanded, I think that also got me more cautious about what I can share. Throw in the complex political situation and the harsher cyber-libel laws and the resulting writing is very restrained.

I try to get creative when I can - hence a lot of metaphorical references to work situations or even out-of-the-blue anecdotes that are not just there but are there for a reason. But figuring out what those stories are going to be or how I'll address certain things does take a lot more brain power and creativity to bring together. So a lot of times I just opt not to address it in a blog post and just move on with my life. 

I think this is what eats more of my writing time - that internal debate of what to cover and what to mask in metaphor and what to leave for another day because I'm just too tired to think about how else to write about it. 

Adulting realities and all that.