02A47: Light in the Darkness

Monday Baked Salmon

Metro Manila Community Quarantine - Day 569

Time moves weirdly while we remain in quarantine. Time continues to move at the pace it always done, one second per second, one minute per minute, and all that. But we also seem to accomplish a lot less or at least it feels like we're not making as much forward momentum. This has been said in so many ways by so many others and the sentiment remains as true as it always will. This status quo is not going to change anytime soon. And it's not clear when we'll be able to get back to a life that feels a lot more normal than all this.

As another year draws to a close, all the novelty of these "unprecedented times" has more than passed. Even online interactions have become tiring. But it's precisely because of things like this that we have to invest even more effort into staying connected with friends. So many stand the risk of dropping off the radar entirely and withdrawing into themselves. And the longer this situation extends, the more people...change. There are people I dearly miss and can't wait to see, yes. And there are those that may not be as good as friends as we once thought and there's no rush to risk exposure to be in close proximity with them.

This pandemic is a singular global event that has changed almost every facet of our lives. We are all going to come out of this experience as very different people than when this all started. Some will come out better and stronger. Others may come out scarred and damaged. But regardless, we'll have to find a way forward.

I didn't know what I wanted to write about today, and I certainly wasn't expecting such a maudlin bit of introspection today. I had a pretty good day at work after all so it's not like I was in a glum mood or something like that. I guess this is less about feeling sad but more a sense of resignation to the life we now have to live. Things are crappy, but it does not mean we are without hope. Things are difficult, but it does not mean we won't endure and come out of this intact. Things seem dark, but we will come out into the light one day and we will be together again with the friends and family that we love. 

But things continue to get worse before they get better. But I'll continue to fight to make sure we get through this somehow. I miss so many things about our old lives, but this also means we have a chance to make even better new lives beyond this current situation. All of this will pass in time.