Metro Manila Community Quarantine - Day 399
I haven't been getting as much sleep as I'd usually do for some reason and that was a bit of a struggle. And this is despite still starting each day with a workout and all that fun stuff. So one of my goals for last night was making sure that I'd try to sleep in and let my body dictate when it would be time to wake up. And...I still woke up earlier than I'd like. But I got close to 6 hours this time instead of barely over 4, so that's a good thing.
The best way to address this, I guess, is to more consistently sleep earlier. But admittedly, there's always the desire to invest more time in de-stressing and other recreation activities after a long workday and all that. But yes, I figure I need to better control when I lie down because I can't seem to control when I get up. During the week my alarms eventually get me out of bed, plus my brain reminding me that I have work. On the weekends, my body still almost automatically wakes me up 6-ish hours after I go to bed - like clockwork.
It's funny that this is my problem now\ since waking up was my challenge in my younger years. And I feel like I only got my sleeping cycle more in order after finally leaving the night shift life - there's something about working in the daytime after more than a dozen years of night shift life that may have reset my system or something. And things have gotten even better since I started losing weight - or at least Tobie assures me that I don't snore as much except when I'm really tired or something. So it's not all that bad.
Maybe I just need to figure out how to get my body to more fully relax. Admittedly, I wake up thinking about what I need to do for the day. What workout routine will I go through? Will I have time for some extra yoga? What's on my calendar? Did I miss my 10:00am step interval? The list of questions goes on and on. So even on the weekend, my brain starts the day making sure that I'm on track for everything I need to do - and that doesn't always factor in everything that I want to do outside of my obligations.
Or maybe this really isn't the best time for truly restful sleeping and perhaps my sleeping challenges are yet another subtle effect of our extended lockdown period. It would be arrogant to dismiss this as a possibility - the impact of the pandemic on everyone's mental health can manifest in different ways and we'll spend the next few years fully unpacking what we've experienced during this period.