024C3: Weight Wobbling


Two Bowls of Soup

Metro Manila Community Quarantine - Day 183

My average weight for this week is heavier than it was last week, which is a bummer since I was a bit on a downward trend. I feel like I need to fight tooth and nail for every last gram of weight I manage to lose with the even greater battle being keeping the weight off in the longer-term. It's a struggle, but it's one of the more important personal efforts I've undertaken since it literally means extending my life. That remains the real end goal here - hence why I've jokingly referred to all this as Project Not Dying.

In my head, I know that this is all part of the journey. Some days the weight will just disappear like magic. Other weeks will make me feel like a whale that has washed up on the shore. But in the long term, all the hard work should pay off as long as I stick to it. It's not easy to believe myself, but I just keep reminding myself of this reality over and over again in order to see things through to the finish line. And I know there's no true "end" to this, but you get what I mean. I just keep setting different goals as we go. Once I hit one, it just means I have room for a new goal after it.

For now, the goal is to get below 70kg and I've been watching the numbers on my scale quite diligently pretty much every day. A watched pot never boils, as they say, but I can't help it. And the numbers sometimes make me feel good and sometimes they make me feel bad. But I guess this is where we talk about how feelings don't always matter - just gotta get results and keep going. Weight isn't the be-all, end-all measure of fitness, I know. But those numbers give me a good place to start.

One step at a time, I just keep moving. And the whole time I hope that I'm still moving forward and actually making progress.