01306: A Night Shift Rant Of Sorts

Ugh, work was pretty hectic, but that's pretty much par for the course for a Monday. Still working a major deadline right now, although a part of me feels that this particular task is somewhat pointless, but that's just my opinion. And what do I know, right? I just write these darned proposals after all.

Yesterday's lovely domestic moment is just another of those instances that really make you question whether the "sacrifice" of working the night shift is really worth it. Naturally I want to spend more time with my loved ones whether it be Tobie and Prince or even my actual biological family or my friends my high school. I know I'm missing out on a lot by working the graveyard hours the way I do, but then it does pay a lot better than what most day jobs can offer on the flip side.

And of course money does make the world go around and it certainly goes a long way towards helping us save up for our longer term goals like finding a nicer place for all of us to live. Despite the recent near-purchase of an Avida condo unit, we know for a fact that we're still not quite as liquid as we'd like to be in order to be ready for that kind of an investment just yet.  And that thought does give one pause and it certainly makes you think about your financial plans for the next few years.

I'm not going to be able to buy a house before the age of 30 - I've accepted that fact and I knowledge it's a stupid goal. It seems nice since it fits into our obsession with nice "round" numbers that end in zero or five. But that's the point - it only seems like a worthy goal when instead it's a tad arrogant, as if I had something to prove to other people and the world at large.

But I do want to be able to spend more time with my boyfriends, who both work on relatively daytime schedules. And so my call center life naturally brings me away from them and leaves me on a separate schedule entirely.

And thus we reach the classic question that every call center employee deals with - is the pay of this job worth the other parts of life that I give up? It wasn't so bad a feeling with just Tobie before since he used to work mostly from home except for the one or two days he'd have to go south. But now his new job in Makati requires his physical presence and of course Prince also had a day job in Makati. And that leaves me practically in a different reality from everyone else where we only get to intersect for about 2-3 hours in day for the most part. And that kinda sucks.

But maybe it will make sense in the long run. Maybe this is all leading me somewhere important. I've been with the company for more than 8 years now. It hasn't exactly been perfect but I can't really complain all that much either. The work is adequately challenging. The people around me are nice and fun to work with. And obviously the pay is worthwhile (but of course could better, hehe). It's really just down to the schedule and what it means in terms of my day-to-day life.

But that's life for you. It's often a big game of give and take. And as long as you can remain focused on the positive and make the most of the time that you do get to spend together and just be together, well, then I suppose it all evens out in the end.